Major's Baptism

This weekend was such an overwhelmingly blessed weekend.

I got to experience the labor and delivery of my sweet nephew just hours before my own baby was baptized. (After his Mama and Daddy see the pictures I will post about his birth)! 

This post is for Major.

For about a year he has been asking us a lot of questions about God, Jesus, heaven, hell and various bible stories. We answered his questions but prayed for him through the year. We actually kinda held back from thinking he was ready to be baptized or even knew what it meant because he is so young. It's the biggest decision he'll ever make so we wanted him to understand as much as he could before he made his decision.

He always prays really sweet prayers. He thanks God for his family and always thanks God for his strength and muscles!!! He usually talks about what we did that day and will sometimes pray for a friend. But a few weeks ago his prayer was different. 

He asked Jesus into his heart and talked about heaven and serving God. It was such and honest and pure prayer. Josh and I looked at each other and tears filled our eyes. 

We are so grateful for his heart and for the work God is doing in him. Our hope is that we are the parents that God wants us to be for him. He will grow and mature in his walk and will hopefully come to know the Lord so much more deeply. I hope everything we do helps him become the man God intends for him to be, but today at five years old, he loves God and Jesus and understands as much as a little boy can.

My heart feels like it will explode with joy for him!

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Graduation

I've always known two things about myself; I love kids and I want to be a mom.

I wasn't sure in what capacity God would use me to fulfill the roles that I desired. The opportunities I've had to love children and the way I became a mom sure weren't the plans I had envisioned for myself, but they are God's plans and,you know, those always turn out better than your own.

I've been extremely fortunate to always be able to be with Major. When he's home, I'm home. When he's at school, I'm at school. Each year I have a class that I get attached to and love and this year is no exception. I've had the opportunity to teach and fall in love with 10 of the sweetest little kiddos in the world. This group of kids have a special place in my heart for sure. I love them each so much and don't take the opportunity to care for them, teach them and love them for granted. They are so sweet and so much fun!

This year is especially special to me because my baby boy will graduate preschool too. I'm sending him off to the great big world of kindergarten. Our days will no longer be spent together, we won't have Major and Mama days during the week when all the big kids are at school. Our house will be very quiet and I will have the opportunity to miss him during the week. On one hand I'm looking forward to that. On the other, not so much.
I'm so happy that he's ready. He's healthy, learning, excelling. I am looking forward to watching him grow and change, learn, and become stronger. Im looking forward to him finding even more independence but I pray he knows he can always come to us.
It feels like he changes everyday so I'm just trying to soak in everything and everyday of him being 5. I want to remember what his hand feels like in mine. I want to remember that when he's tired he likes me to rub his cheek. I want to remember how fearless he is. How stubborn.

I know kindergarten is the beginning really but for me, for us, it's an ending too. I'm trying to hold it together as my only baby reaches this milestone.

To say I'm thankful or grateful to have the opportunity to be his mom just isn't enough. I'm not sure, through that dark tunnel of a place I was in praying for him, how God chose us for each other but I am so so so so blessed that he did.

The next few days will be a blur I'm sure but as I send my 10 littles and my own babe off to kindergarten I want them all to know what a blessing they are to me and how fortunate I am to have a small part in their lives.